Today, like usual, I got up at 6:46am and took a shower. Then I made up Elder Parks' bed while he was taking a shower. It made me feel good. And I hope it makes me love him more. I can feel it starting to work.
I have memorized another half of a paragraph from the Ds [Discussions written in Russian] - it's hard though. We never have enough time. Well - by for now.
It's just after supper. Michelle Merithew wrote. Yahoo. Whew. I just [got] back from the evening class. I feel like I just suck. I'm feeling pretty bad. I feel like Moses. Earlier today I was feeling really good and in the last class I felt the Spirit so strongly. But afterwards I really didn't. It's like the Spirit left me when I was trying to teach the 1st principle of the 2nd Discussion. I floundered and really disliked it. Intensely. I went after Elder Parks and I felt like he did so good and I compared myself to him and the Spirit departed.
So what I learned from today is not to be contentious. And not to compare myself to other people. But that is really hard to do [or not to do - as the case may be]. I don't understand why we can't have the Spirit with us always. Is it because we are not suppose to or is it because I have done something wrong?
I'm feeling better now. It's like I just have to get it off of my chest or Satan can only tempt or discourage me for so long and that's all? Well it's bedtime. night
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