November 4, 1996 - Monday

Tonight again I feel weird.  Whatever it is [that] the Lord wants me to know - I have no idea what it is.  I have the feeling that I am not learning it.  I feel really bad right now.  I've had diarhea the past couple of days.  I feel like fasting forever.  It's the only way I really feel the Spirit.   I know it is not a good thing but I feel like doing it.  Please dear Heavenly Father help me.  I love you so much.  Thank you.